| | so i sometimes wonder why God does certain things in one's life. there is a great saying in a movie (evan almighty) that God answers prayers in opportunity. meaning..."does he give you patience or courage? or does he give you an opportunity in which you can be patient or courageous?" i think this is a great way to look at how God answers our prayers because it also doesn't put God on a timer...He will answer your prayers in His time when He thinks you may be ready. and i think that more than 90% of the time we do not realize that God is answering our prayer until after we have gone through something amazing or a trial of difficulty.
so...this is what i get from my most recent experience. that experience being dating. i really questioned whether this was "the" relationship or if it was my heart over God's. praying to Him He only gave me one answer..."I am with you with whatever you choose to do...I have bigger plans for you." I think that this failed relationship gave me two things...one: confidence in God and who He is. two: re-open wounds that God needs to heal...
I have found that within the past couple months that I have been back from Springhill I have been able to trust and have confidence in the Lord in ways that i never have before. i realized that God could satisfy me more than the one i was in a relationship with. i realized that i relied more on God in a relationship then when i was not in one. yes, i messed up-but God didnt leave. He reassured me of His presence and what He wanted for and from me. The other thing was my own stubborness to believing that I was healed from past pain. I wasnt...and i think that when i finally let go and give it to God He will heal me...but I could not be healed while being in a relationship...some people can...but God wanted me to Himself for this process.
It's amazing how faith can grow and still amaze you. They say that being a Christian is boring...but daily I am finding out new things. I finally found out what it means to rejoice in a time when you are hurt. I didnt think i would ever get what that truely meant and how to experience that...cuz lets face it...when you arae sad or upset you are not going to be thanking God...but in just an hour n half i felt a glimpse of deep sorrow filled joy...sounds ridiculous but you know you want to know what it feels like. i pray that you do someday.
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