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This was from one of my facebook notes in Feb. on Dwelling...
What I have found in the past month n' half was to stop dwelling on
things in the past and dwelling on the "what ifs" of the future or
decisions. I have found that dwelling in His presence is what gives
someone peace. What I mean by dwelling in Him is not dwelling in the
joys that He has given me or the blessings of each day, but to dwell in
Him and His presence. I think so many people miss the simple, perfect
fact of dwelling in GOD our Father and not the "things He has done for
'me'" God puts a lot on my plate daily that I do not even pay attention
to. But that has been changing and I have found that when I am able to
dwell on Him/in Him I am at such a greater peace.
Some rough things have happened the past two months. Wounds that I
thought were healed are being reopened BY God so that He can heal them.
Things that I would put off and not hurt about them because I thought
that it would make me weak...God wants me to hurt about them and be
healed through Him. He knows me...He's searched my heart. It is His
timing that is perfect. It is His faithfulness that I can wait on Him.
How lovely is your dwelling place
Oh Lord God Almighty
My soul yearns; it even faints
For the courts of the Lord
As of right now...it's been hard to feel that peace of dwelling.
I am in the mist of silence and it isn't bad. While praying one night God whispered "silence" and I thought that meant for me to just take the day and be in silence. I have been so wrapped up in business with school and wanting to hang out with new people I have met, it almost seemed impossible for me to just shut everyone out, turn off the ipod and cell phone...but...what I realized was that I didn't need to be in silence. God was in silence. Does that make sense? no? Here's what I am realizing. God has glory in wrath and in grace. I have not been seeking Him out. I have not been thinking of Him first and finding more ways to be of the world than in it. ok....so...thinking about that night I was praying God didn't say TO BE silent...He just said "silence". Being selfish I put it to how it applies in my life and my will not God's.
God wants me to seek His heart again. He wants me to bow down to Him again and be in awe of Him alone. To again dwell on His presence only. As of right now...He will remain silent. His silence is definately not Him leaving me or giving up on me. But His silence is a way of pursuing me.
I think that if you are experiencing silence from God...don't give up. Pursue Him more. That's what He wants...How are we so selfish that we only think that He should pursue us? let him do all the work?
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