| | I have finished my junior year of college. I am now officially a senior. I am in Champaign right now, and driving all the places that I use to go to in high school makes me really look back at the past and think about all the mistakes, all the laughs, all the dances, all the friends that I thought I would have forever. Things change. I guess they change everyday, but you don't realize how fast things have gone by until you say it out loud: "I am a senior in college." "Have I really just graduated college" (for all you grads). I kind of feel like I have graduated just because I have so many friends that have graduated this year. So many friends moving around the country getting jobs. Starting the real world. And...what makes me laugh inside...so many high school kids are about to graduate and they think that life is ending without their friends, and going off to college. They think that they are entering the real world now. I know...I've been there. News Flash!! Life has just begun all over again! You will find new friends (unless you go to school with all your high school friends). My advice...go to a college where your entire graduating class is NOT going! Anyway..........it's just weird to think that I have one more year before I am out on my own.
I have been thinking a lot about the past three years. The mistakes, the laughs, the new friends, the new places I have been, the things that I have seen, the things I wish I didn't see, the people I have been blessed with, the relationships that have formed and fallen apart. It has been a trip thus far. I will definately say that this has been a growing year. This has been maybe the best year (2007-spring 2008). This year has really put in place those people that I know will always be there. Ive learned a lot about friendships, relationships, who I want to be, who I am right now and how to get to who I want to be.
If I could describe myself in three words I would say: Ambitious—I really want to do some great things in my life. I want to travel. I want to do volunteer work over seas. I want to work over seas. I want to go places. I want to change lives the way mine has been changed. I would say that in the past things have just been words....empty words....but now that the future is closer and more apparent...they are things that I plan to follow through with. Second: Maturing—this is an on-going thing. But the way that I see things, my values, my perceptions have all changed. I think that I am more realistic about what relationships should be like (after dating, a relationship back in the fall, and seeing other relationships). I think that I am also more mature in what I want out of life. I definately still have fun going out with my friends, but compared to high school and freshman year...lets just say I am more responsible about the places I go and the people I hang out with. Third: Steadfast—maybe this one should be first on the list. I would say that I am steadfast in more ways than one. But mostly I would say this applies to my relationship with God. I have my fears and my moments but who doesnt? We're not perfect. I think that I really started believing in God's faithfulness last summer. I am not one to live out my faith so outwardly (I AM bold when I need to be). But I know that what choices I make God is right there...He gave me a free will, and if I choose something wrong...I know He doesnt just up and leave and give up on me. I think that is the most important thing that God has proven to me...HE has NEVER given up on me when others have.
I dont know where I am going, who I will become. But I know that my faith in Christ, in God is everlasting. I know that where I am right now is a good place. I know that whatever difficulties come my way or are here...they will pass...I will overcome them. I am living out today because today is what I have.
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| | Posted 5/8/2008 12:33 AM - 40 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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